I wish I could just sleep all the time so my dream world would be complete. My real world is a place of hate and disrespect. Any interest in me is nothing more than a down low experience that leaves me more alone than when I started.
I am a woman and not a fetish. This will never change in my lifetime and I will be utterly alone forever. At least when I am asleep I can dream about normal things like relationships and people who care about me.
It's too bad I have to wake up and and come back to the reality of being an unwanted toy.
My biggest dream in life is to find my Poly partner and have a couples account that grows into a group account.
It will never happen as the only interest in me is simple experimentation on the down low offering me nothing but a penis.
It wasn't supposed to be like this. I am not a fetish. I am a person. I have feelings and dreams and now I have to face my dreams with never become a reality.
My girl friend stopped last night to let me know she had been genetically tested and discovered she had a percentage of Irish in her and was going to drink green beer.
I asked if I could join as I had let a red headed guy do me once so I had Irish in me at one time too.
Everything I really wanted was be with a guy. A guy unafraid hold my hand and let everyone know they are with ME . A man adores as much as I adore him.
Doesn't matter what he looks like. A that matters is that he never try make be a man in the bedroom.